SOBER CITY – Day 261

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Sober City – September 18, 2011
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Over 8 and a half months booze free. Couple weeks more and I’ll be able to relate to all the health conscious mothers out there who had to give up drinking because of the little monsters growing in their bellies. Yes your baby is a beautiful shining light that has changed your outlook on life entirely and will one day cure cancer, now drink your Merlot, I feel ya sister! The comparison is flawed but the sense of accomplishment is sound. All doubt of making it the full year has been completely replaced by pride and perseverance and it really doesn’t feel like an experiment anymore. It’s just a part of who I am right now and that’s really all it is.
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We all make choices every minute of every day and these choices help shape who we are and ultimately how we feel. Our experience of life largely has to do with our perception of the world around us so it’s important to help create the world you want to live in by becoming aware of the choices you make. Just being aware of the fact that you are constantly making choices every day, will help steer you in the right direction. For me, making the choice to not consume any alcohol for a year has served as a daily reminder of all the other things I can choose to do or not do and how profound an impact it can have on who I am and how I feel. The food I eat, the places I go, the company I keep, it’s all up to me and the beautiful part of it all is, if something isn’t working it can always go away and if something is missing it can always come back. I get to choose that. We all do.
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The thing is, most of us make the choice to accept the world as we see it and live inside our own little self designed hells no matter how shitty and small it makes us feel and the worse we feel the harder it is for us to see that we’re doing it to ourselves. It can sometimes be extremely hard to change our path but not making the choice to change things is still making a choice. Sometimes accepting your situation is exactly what you have to do to be happy, but sometimes it only makes things worse. Only you know for sure and only you can decide who you’re going to be and how you’re going to live in this gong show of a life called the human experience. That’s the real experiment here. Living a life you want instead of wanting a life to live.
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So in a little over 3 months, the year will be over and a new one will begin. I’ll stop blogging about not drinking and continue to live my life day to day with new habits and a fresh outlook on life. It’s been an enormously beneficial transformation period so far and the growth and learning doesn’t have to end January 1st. It never does, and it never will. I choose to take control of what comes next and take ownership of everything that comes my way and I hope you do too. Because we only have a little over 15 months until Dec 21st, 2012 when the Mayans send dragons to burn us all. Happy Holidays! Cheers!
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